a man...n THE man...

helo pEepz..uve Soooo gota check this out...

it's so funny lor. got it frm a forwarded mail frm dad..
I wonder if it's true..cos my list is still very like the first...
then again since I think such a man doesn't exist at all, Ive goto revise it soon...

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What I Want In A Man !  

What I Want in a Man,
Original List:1.   Handsome
2.   Charming
3.   Financially successful
4.   A caring listener
5.   Witty
6.   In good shape
7.   Dresses with style
8.   Appreciates finer things
9.   Full of thoughtful surprises
10. An imaginative, romantic lover   

What I Want in a Man , Revised List (age 45) 
1.  Nice looking
2.  Opens car doors, holds chairs
3.  Has enough money for a nice dinner
4.  Listens more than talks
5.  Laughs at my jokes
6.  Carries bags of groceries with ease
7.  Owns at least one tie
8.  Appreciates a good home-cooked meal
9.  Remembers birthdays and anniversaries
10. Seeks romance at least once a week   

What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 55) 
1.  Not too ugly
2.  Doesn't drive off until I'm in the car
3.  Works steady - splurges on dinner out occasionally
4.  Nods head when I'm talking
5.  Usually remembers punch lines of jokes
6.  Is in good enough shape to rearrange the furniture
7.  Wears a shirt that covers his stomach
8.  Knows not to buy champagne with screw-top lids
9.  Remembers to put the toilet seat down
10. Shaves most weekends   

What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 65) 
1.  Keeps hair in nose and ears trimmed
2.  Doesn't belch or scratch in public
3.  Doesn't borrow money too often
4.  Doesn't nod off to sleep when I'm venting
5.  Doesn't retell the same joke too many times
6.  Is in good enough shape to get off couch on weekends
7.  Usually wears matching socks and fresh underwear
8.  Appreciates a good TV dinner
9.  Remembers your name on occasion
10. Shaves some weekends   

What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 75) 
1.  Doesn't scare small children
2.  Remembers where bathroom is
3.  Doesn't require much money for upkeep
4.  Only snores lightly when asleep
5.  Remembers why he's laughing
6.  Is in good enough shape to stand up by himself
7.  Usually wears some clothes
8.  Likes soft foods
9.  Remembers where he left his teeth
10. Remembers that it's the weekend   

What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 85)  
1. Breathing
2. Doesn't miss the toilet.

hmm..this is getting me very worried..haa.. Ill tell u when I reach the age of 85 huh....

oh..actually, come to think of it..if Im still having this list at 85..that will mean Ill be an old spinster isn't it? OhHHnOOoooo...
I hope not...seriously hope not..... pls tel me the state of men aint that pathetic..............


im sooooo desp to watch a movie lor...the last movie I watched was.... Click!!!! with my bRuDar..oh sheesh.. im sooo behind time. I wanna watch so many movies..just aint got the time..n money too la. haa. actually wat I realllly want is to get myself many many DVDs....but heard it's darn hard to find any now..(im talking bout the pirated ones la...shhhh) sigh..
parents cdn't find much in China since the places they went were pretty wulu...wasted! cos it's so darn cheap over there..... I sooo want my Ally Mcbeal..urrgh..

hmm.. work was kinda fun today.. had a MP customer...kinda honoured..cos he drank my cappucino darnit! =) hmm.. I wonder when Ill get to make one for Brad Pitt or some big star .... well actually the 1 person I reallly wanna meet, see in real life n shake hand n all that crap is Peter Schmeichel... yea..


Im serious....ever since years n years ago...he's the MAN I wanna meet in real person..
oh in case u r wondering who the hell he is..he 's an ex goalkeeper for Manchester United... n had

been my favourite ...n will always be..
ve got this little figurine of his...with the big nose ...haa. got it for my bday present... thanks pals who bought me that. I love it!

to me...he's just so cool *drools* ...he's Danish...he's darn tall. 6ft 4..that's about 1.93,1.94m n u should look at the way he flings the ball across the field... or the way he commands...he practically screams at his teammates all the time... permanent PMS kind of person... haa.
oh..but too bad he's happily married.. =P haa.

alright..think it's time for me to bathe n sleep soon...take care sweeties...
oh btw I hate it cos the raining monsoon is coming..been raining these days..n I hate rains!!!!!!

with metta....

sick n can't sleep

I know it's 3.30am and why the hell am I still blogging n not sleeping... I wish I can.. Im sick..but can't sleep.. tossed n turned n tossed n turned...the feeling sux.. coughin hurts..throat hurts..fever's attacking.. body's aching.. urgh.
see that polar----->> think I look like that now...

haven seen a doctor...for some reason..Im allergic to doctor..I know some ppl just love visiting doctors n getting MCs(maybe this is the only reason they like seeing doc..) ..but I just have this thing abt seeing doc. I dun like the smell of the clinic.. eww..sorry to my doc frens... =P

parents are back (good enough reason to mourn...) haa. picked them up frm airport yesterday..( no not with a car..by bus my dears..) seems like they had fun! well, I remember I used to love going to the airport...often frequent the place to study ..to slack..to walk around wishing I was gonna fly off to somewhere...or walking around wishing I was one of the pretty SIA stewardess pulling a cute suitcase, on the way to London (yes..I realised that will never happen..) .
well, but now since I WORK at the airport literally...kinda lost that exciting feeling when I approach the airport..haa.

anywayz...while waiting for my parents to arrive...realised the gates were littered with loTS n LOTS of kids... and guess what...when the passengers of the honoured flight started coming in....ALL the kids were screaming "AH ma AH MA AH MA!!!!!" and jumping around....

for a moment...while I imagined myself walking out from inside...I would have thought we (as in the welcoming ppl outside the gates) looked pretty much like animals in the zoo exhibit glass cages.... especially when the children were waving n jumping n screaming n banging at the glass doors... =P
it was quite a funny sight though.. n what I thought was amusing was that every kid was screaming for their Ah Ma s ..which were different grandmas... n being a flight coming frm China.....it was almost filled with senior citizens...n all the ahma s n ah gong s touring their homeland... n my dear parents were probably way below the average age of the tour group..sheesh. haa.
oh but MY ah ma was there too..yea my parents n my grandma n my aunt went together..so oh well, I cd have joined the kids in screaming for MY ahma.. =)

sighz. I still don't feel sleepy.. urgh. I hate it . and u know what's worse..I just dislike telling abt not being able to sleep sometimes... esp my parents will go "You have to change your sleeping pattern..sleep early..blahblah.." urgh. I jsut can't get them to understand it's not because of that.
I can sleep when I want to..it's not the timing..it's just the mind.
so many things going tru my mind I can't sleep..NO MATTER what time. I sleep well when Im tired because my mind will have NO energy to think n go wild... sigh.
n the funny thing is it's always me...everything I do seem to be wrong..n not right.. it's always about how I need to do things differently...how I have to do it this way..notmy way...it makes life so miserable man. n I hate feeling inadequate. sheesh.

okay..ill stop complaining. hmm..Im really excited bout planning my trip next yr... actually it feels kinda scary at times, thinking about how lost I may be..or how I might get mugged n stuff. haa. but oh well! it's worth a try. Im game for it! gota brush up on my self-defence skills before that! =) u watch out!

nitey sweets!
oh yes CHECK OUT MY NEW TAG BOARD! aint it so cool...and aint that colour sooo me? =P

with metta...

life...

been busy as usual with work lately... yest was quite an "experience" ...first time working night shift (11pm-8am)..but that was not it...I continued working after 8am till bout 4 pm... like a marathon.... manz I almost "died" mentally.. well, I was practically stoned.. talking like a robot at times..haa.
I guess it was really a challenge.. after I was done with the shifts...by the time I went home after getting some food was bout 7plus...my body was aching and tired... cdnt think at all... went to sleep but woke up at 11pm ...sheesh.. slacked ard at home..only slept at 4am.. wat the heck.. sleeping got screwed up again..haa...
honestly..I dunno how workaholics do it...they work n work..overnight..overday..non stop..manz.
n like my dad, well, he doesn't fall asleep easily n is a light sleeper, I really don't know how he does it..work n not rest enough but work again.. totally know how tiring it is man.. can get very grumpy n moody too..
the best thing is...I will prob haf to do it again on sunday.. duno how I ll go tru it..cos Im still feeling the after-effects..n getting sick as well... feverish..

2 days ago... I was feeling very very disturbed...when I found out a person I know has passed away... to respect her,I won't say how the person go, but the fact that I only realised weeks after it..I feel quite regretful I didn' attend her service..
i was filled with lots of thoughts after the news... Ive only seen the person twice in fact...a brief encounter...I dun realli know her much in fact... but now that I won't be able to see her anymore in life...it jsut makes me scared about how vulnerable life it..
Ive always feared death..feared how short life can be.. neevr really gotten a good answer to life and death... it's hard.. sigh..
life is short..pls be nice to loved ones.. pls be kind to everyone n everything u meet... u neevr know when u won't see it again..u dont' want to have regrets..

with metta...

post-friday the 13th curse..

need a rest...dunno why but luck's been turning on me lately...had a really bad day yest.. stressed up.. had a few bad incidents..and god-knows why I got cursed many times in a day too. sighz.
guess they prob thought I was being such a bitch huh, and ironically I didn't mean too.. bad days just suck big time.. urgh.

anywayz..dun seem to have much of any other life except work these days..haa. yea. been spending my afternoons, nights etc @ the Third place =) (that means work place...sheesh.)
miss a good swim..or a good run.. been days since I had one.. too lazy to wake up to do that la.. haa. aint that typical..

this week's kinda quiet at home... wonder how my parents are doing..must be having a great China time! haa. not exactly my kind of dream place so I dun really feel Im missing out much le. =P

urgh..I can't wait for my travel "to-do" next year to realise.!!! been reading up a little.. melbourne's for sure if I can drop by..I love the place the last time I went.... thinking of heading to cairns too..or prob adelaide... ahh..i so wanna go everywhere...!!!!

how's everyone?? seems like all's having lotsa fun ..and Im kinda "dislocated" somehow..haa.
oh yes. Im so darn sorry about the stupid tag-board..i know there's this pop-up thing that asks for password..it's super annoying...but I realy don't know how to get rid of it..I will try soon! sorry peepz.

with metta...

annoying haze..

there's smtg wrong with my tagboard..but i just dunno how to solve it. urgh. anyone knows? it's annoying me..
anyways..it's 1am in the morning and I should really be sleeping soon.. but feeling kinda awake..jus came back frm work not too long ago...brain dead..headache..and falling sick...hmm..it must be the haze! (that;s what everyone blames now isnt it...)

working pm again tomorrow..so hopefully I get good sleep tonight... these few days of work has gotten me alittle stressed up..worried about not getting things right..and not knowing enough to help out in other areas. sometimes when I think about it, Im scared others will b annoyed with me for not knowing tings or for forgeting stuff.. urgh.

but so far, Im grateful Ive gotten lotsa help from patient partners... no one has blown at me yet...yet... Ive gota learn fast man..

actually, it's kinda nice to talk to nice customers who are friendly and fun! I think it's a really enjoyable part of the job... to me, such interaction like buying or ordering smtg can be more than just a transaction in life... it can be a small part of your day that makes you feel happy, appreciated and recognised... or just a converastion that relaxes u..puts u into a more "hawaii" kinda mode...
I dunno how others think but so far..I guess many customers dun feel the need to find any fun in talking to ppl serving them huh. oh well, everyone's differnt I suppose..

omg. come to think of it..Ive got so many things to do..but haven had the time to! urgh.. and I missed my class this morning cos I cdnt wake up...n my backache's killing me.. ahhh!!!
oh yea, my parents are going on a holiday !!! leaving tomorrow morning..for a week to China! yea...china china..hmm.. nah. not for me.. hoping my plans for travel next yr will be realised soon!
alrite, think i better go sleep, goodnite sweets!

with metta..

choc choc choc..

ahhh...realised haven blogged for the past 2,3 days. been pretty busy.. hmm.. let's see, last nite was at work...great fun I had... was my 2nd official day at work.. but had lotsa fun~ though I have to admit, I did feel pretty stressed at first, since Im raw with all the recipes, drink calling and the way to get things around.
Was quite afraid to frustrate my partners (we call colleagues partners...).. esp. when I didn do things the way it should. din want to offend anyone or any customer! but u know what, everyting went pretty fine, esp. thankful to be working with great partners, they were helpful and perfect~

oh yea, u guys who love chocolates...or chocolatey drinks...go try our new drink! haa, cos we were given the task to "promote" the promotion drink...so we were almost greeting each customer with a "suggestion" for their order.. haa. but still, u give it a try, it's a revised recipe of the old one, and if u liked the old one, u will definitely be in love with this! =)

Heard we sold a good amount yest. ..feeling happy for the store! yay! but feel for our poor partner at the bar yest. had to keep doing the promotion drinks due to the non-stop order of the same drink... =) but all thanks to him that the customers cd enjoy a great cup of hot choc!~ =)

ah, tommorow's hopefully gonna be a good day.. quite a few things to do.. hmm. parents going oversea next week..sounds like fun! haa..for me i meant.. =) but gonna be busy with work anyway...sigh..so not really gonna enjoy the freedom to the max .. will be missing them too!

poor mum's having a reeealy bad cough...because of the haze I guess..(that's what every sick person wil blame isn't it?) haa. yea, poor her..coughing like there's no tomorow..with that horrible echo...u know.. it's kinda scary.. gota watch out I guess, the weather's not too well, and the air's bad... so u sweeties out there, take care okay!

alright dearies, gota go now..take care!

(the photos in this post were taken @ the bF musical this year...I miss it...)

kindness vs unkindness...

what do you do when an old person approaches you to buy smtg frm them so they can earn some money?..... Im sure every one of us experiences this at MRT stations or wherever with good human traffic...
what do you do? do you walk away? do you buy? do you not even bother to say no..and ignore the person... do you grumble or worse still, curse at them? don't be surprised..bcos I really witness many ppl cursing at them... how mean u might say.. but they might just happen to be you or ppl you know...

Im disturbed...at how uncompassionate humans can become...Im not all holy , nor am I innocent of "mean" stuff...Im sure Im also guilty of many other unkind things.. ..but I really don't understand why ppl have to be so "narrow-hearted"(directly translated..) sometimes... You might say you were having a bad day...and the "beggar" had to pester you... ive heard many reasons..and justifications for treating others in ways we shouldn't have.. aren't they all excuses?

can u imagine urself being in their shoes? or your mum, your dad? You think you won't end up like this? think twice..because life is unpredictable...things ain't permanent.... thank your lucky stars you have your 3 meals..your job..your abililty to hold your pride and laugh at others.. because not everyone is that fortunate...

I guess I just feel very disturbed when I keep seeing such unpleasant scenes....when we really don't wish to buy from them or don't wish to donate..at least just kindly say no..if u can..smile..is that so hard? if u dun think they should bother you at all...maybe u should try doing flag day for once. or maybe when the day comes that you need help from others...you will understand how grateful u will be to kindness...

anyhow..forget the talk on kindness... my days been alrite...busy like a bee with work.. Im finally a certified barista! haa. today was my first day officially la..no more training! yipee! but waking up at 6am was definitely the hardest challenge of the entire working time.. gosh..I can't imagine how I used to wake up at that time EVERYDAY for school .... sheesh.. peifu peifu to those who do that everyday... esp. teachers too.. manz.. I dun tink Ill ever wanna be a teacher since theyve gota wake up so early too! *salute to my teacher sweeties frenz* =)

I wanna get a dog! ...I wan a dog! have always had a little dream ...a fantasy about my future dream house... it hasn't changed much since I was 10? It will always be "coloured" with a dog or 2... but the kind of dog kinda change frm time to time..haa. sometimes a golden retriever...then a jack russell...then a terrier...german shephard...collie... oh but neevr a poodle..eeeks!

I like dogs..they are so "feeling"...they know when u are feeling sad...when u need a cuddle... when u are angry so they will stay away... and I can bring them for a run! (now u know why I wun get a poodle..or a chihuahua...ill get charged for abuse...)

yea, and just dogs...no cats allowed...dunch haf a liking for them...too eerie...too moody..too "teh"..u never know what they are thinking....almost like men...I just dun get it... =) haa. (that was a joke, no offence!)

hmm..also dunno what got me talking bout dogs...all I know is I keep dreaming about my dream future...sheesh.. fantasize is what I do best.. my dream house...dream guy..dream job ( I still dunno what..)... dream family...dream children...dream this dream that... and then when I realise...how far reality actually is... everything just burst into little little empty molecules and atoms....
with metta...still dreaming.. Kat

I smell coffee...I smell of coffee...

how's everyone doing? my week's been pretty cool... busy with job training...learning recipes of drinks...trying to taste the difference btw coffee beans frm Africa, Asia, Latin America etc...although seriously..I still can't figure out the diff..

But tru the training...when I started to read more about the coffee growing process...I realise how tough farmers jobs are... from planting the seeds...harvesting...collecting..... wow..and esp. when conditions aint predictable at times eg. heavy rains..drought...
it's the same for rice farmers aint it.. so I guess next time u drink a cup of coffee...(make it black..no milk! it's good!) appreciate the flavour and appreciate the hardwork of the farmers! =)

oh yea, had my bar test today... meaning testing ur beverage making skills at the bar(expresso machine)...steaming the milk..to the RIGHT temperature...with the Right kind of foam... making the RIght kind of drinks... my drinks were even weighed to make sure they are within the correct range!
omG..haa. but not too bad except I screwed up some parts...hopefully it all goes well huh.

listening to Uncle Kracker's Follow Me...was a hiT! still sounds good.. ahh..
I know my blog is kinda annoying now with that song keep replaying.. sorry about that, Ill take it off soon..gota ask my bro to do it..I know nuts bout these stuff.

oh yea, met up with some bf sweeties yest. that was good, a nice time-out from training.. but was super duper tired yest night..I tink it was after the whole day work n stuff. my body was totally dead... aching ...each time I feel that...u know what I reallly really want... I wd wish Im in Thailand..having a massage.. ahh.. miss it man.. that's the best thing there I think.. cheaper la. haa. but my mum says it's even cheaper in China...true?

kinda hoping to go for a holiday soon.. any idea anyone? was thinking of going to outback.. prob spend one or two weeks ..hopefully a month (depending on budget!!) just checking out the place..backpack rate I guess. that would keep me excited! ..hmm.. any advice anyone?
Where to go? How much I need? etc...
oh but rest assure, Im gonna check out Steve Irwin's Zoo! =)

take care sweets...with metta..

the art of expresso...

had quite a lousy start of the day... wanted so much to go for a swim to relax but din haf the time..n felt so lethargic the whole day. urgh.

oh, but an interesting part of the day was....the workshop "the art of expresso"...now I know how to pull a shot! as in an expresso shot..using the machine!
Im sure u remember the sound/noises u hear when u are in a Starbucks or Coffeebean.. the brewing of the coffee...the knocking sound..and the hissing of the milk steaming process... yea.. learnt to make a cappuccino..latte...mocha.. ooo.. not easy man.. to make a good one..

but too bad I cdn't get to taste it.. must make a soy one next time.. am still down with the diarrhea from eating the muffins n trying the cappucino that day.. urgh. oh ..cos Im lactose intolerant so I get this stupid bloating n diarrhea after eating anything that contains dairy... and it's not fun.. it bugs me n makes me feel sick the whole day.. me and my itchy greediness.. cdnt resist it.. n ended up suffering..darnnit.

hmm.it's only tuesday... few more days to go...training in store again tommorow ..gota be up early in the morning.. hopefully it will go fine.. gets quite scary when I have to do the drinks calling and rememeber the right sequence to call out..n to remmber the recipes! omg.. oh well, it should be fine..

have u ever felt afraid of offending ppl n making urself hated in a place? yea, a friend was talking to me about such situation.. I guess I feel it a lot.. self-conscious n wonder if u did anything wrong to hurt anyone unintentionally.. we were wondering how some others can totally not be bothered by such stuff..they can be themselves..talk like they are right..and if u aint on their side.. then that's ur problem... is that confidence? high self-esteem? hmm..i can never get that feeling somehow.. sux.

alritey guys, gota go sleep soon...gota wake up earrrrly n a loooong day tommorow...I miss my sleeping beauty sleeps....n I hate the sound of the alarm clock...boohoooo....

with metta...

lousy sunday..

smtg happened today..just now.. makes me feel kinda sad.. sad at what I have to cope with.. I know it doesn't make sense anyway.. it's too complicated..
I just feel sad again..that I have to disappoint ppl I always try my best to please.. have u ever felt being not good enough for something? as if u ain't worthy of it.. yea I feel that way.. feel that alot.. they call it low self-esteem ..or even lack of self love.. I call it lack of positive reinforcement..

Let's forget about that crap..that's just for me to deal with..
my day wasnt the usual sunday...no youth session today.. come to think of it..wow..1 week passed! sounds cliche but time flies man! remember last sunday I met up with some bf dearies after dinner.... at this rate...before I know it..Im gonna be in my 40's...sheesh... hopefully by then, I won't be still in this pathetic state.. then again..I hope Ill still be alive.. oh crap.

next few days gonna be xiong.. entire day of job training tomorrow...gota wake up at 7am...n be back at midnite... ahh.. I miss waking up late... lucky I had a dosage of it today.. hopefully enough to last me for a few days..
think I have sleeping probs.. never gotten proper ones since godknows when.. always so brief n disturbed.. hangover effects each time I wake up.. when I don't even drink.. wat the heck.
suddenly I wonder how it feels to wake up from a good deep sleep.. like the way they describe it...feeling "refreshed" and "alive".. hmm. I guess for me I always feel unfresh..n dead? haa. crap..again.

think Im not in the proper state to blog today.. having a deficiency of happiness at this moment..
u guys take care huh..
with metta...

Thank you my friends (9)...
It's a group of friends esp. 2 special ladies that I wanna thank today... =) yup, it's amazing how much care and love u dearies have for others.. Im grateful for your care and patience .. how u took care of me in 46A.. never judge but listen whole heartedly.. always believed in hope..and always saw the positive side of everything and everyone...
The 2 special ladies (N n M) are sweeties that Ill never ever forget.. the nights we chatted.. how u2 cheered me up when I was at my lowest point.. bearing with all the crap.. and chose to "inject" me with hope and positivity.. been years.. August 2003.. it was tough..but u2 stood by me..these are friendships Im grateful for..thanks dears..