a song for u..

wanna dedicate this song to all those who had lost their family members or friends..

when i listen to this song.. i think of a very special person whom made a huge difference to my life..esp. my childhood..
he brought me out on outings to the pier.. to city hall.. to many places.. told me stories ..war stories..stories of his coolie days.. he taught me manners... n always reassure tat he gave me 100% moral support for whatever i do...
thank u my dearest granddad. i will never forget the times we shared together, and am thankful for all that u'd taught me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCvjZvzqlHk&feature=related

with metta..

stupid fool

such a depressing day. pissed off too.
all thanks to people who enjoy manipulating others.. hypocrites n all. feel so stupid. always kenna such idiots.
i dun understand why some people enjoy giving false hopes to others..n the 'others' end up being stupid enough to live on that hope...
ppl who make others look like a fool. make u do a lot of shit then turn u around..
don't these ppl have a conscience at all?
to think i actually trust them.
im tired of being used. a good friend says im too nice? i think im too stupid.
i think im gonna be a bitch. at least the bitches n bXX get their way.

disappointed fool.

chocolate kick ass!

had a nice chill sunday. usual sunday routine.. went for training.. starting to get addicted to the good feeling after punching n kicking my ass out. so shiok man.

if i have a chance to experience.. i wanna grow up in thailand doing muay thai. haa. then the kicks will be super power.. guaranteed man. imagine kicking coconut trees since 5. i will be able to kick ASS! =)

btw that reminds me. watched Chocolate with bro last week. the movie bout this female muay thai fighter. Power man. take my hats off her. all the kicks n stunts done by her alone.. no double. no stunt-woman.. no wonder it took 4 freaking years to film that. like my bro said.. it was prob because of the waiting for her many injuries n bruises to recover. lol.

i think the show is pretty good. something that is so basic without those computer tricks n all. no 'matrix' style of dodging bullets. but just simple martial arts. she's freaking flexible too lo.
if u watch it. definitely must stay till the credits part. watch the 'ng' scenes. it's alotta 'OUCH' n 'WTF'.. who says females can't fight!
bro say Ong Bak's lot better. i wouldn deny, but i think for a female fighter show. it's solid. way better than the million dollar baby movie. boring show. fell asleep on it.

new week's up. need to make good use of it.

with metta.

Air Force School...bro oh bro.

ok. a less emo post i promise.

attended bro's grad today. grad frm his Air Force School. was @ the Paya Lebar AFS lo.
that place certainly brought back lotsa memories for both my parents since they were ex-sign ons of RSAF.
wondering tru the Air Force museum was like going back to their 'golden years'.. with a lotta 'OH REMEMBER THIS?', and 'SEE! THE OLD TYPEWRITER!' and 'WE USED TO WEAR THIS UNIFORM!'


They even met their ex-colleagues who r still working there.. can u imagine.. working for 30-40 yrs... so loyal man.

Back to my bro.. so handsome huh.. with the neatly pressed uniform and all. with the sword's the nicest i think.
all the 'ah bin ge' around..

i think guys look fantastic in uniforms! (oh.. or maybe it's just me.. have a thing for guys in military uniforms.. lol.)

apparently quite a lotta of his mates commented that me n bro look alike.. we do? maybe the 'black face'? haa.

so proud of little bro. i honestly hope this army thing makes guys better men as it's supposed to.

check out more of the photos @ my facebook album! =)

love n unlove..to love n be loved..

feeling quite sad.. many ppl around me seems to be having problems with relationships.. though im not directly involved, i dunno why i can't help feeling very disappointed in "love'..

ppl know me to be skeptical and quite a cynic when it comes to "love"... all the experiences, mine and the ones i know.. dun give much hope to 'love'...
why is it so hard to fall in love for some.. and so hard to stay in love for some.. n so hard to forget the love for others...
is it because we have too many choices now.. ? is it because we always expect the best? is it because we always rather choose the easier way out? because of that... will we end up losing the ones we truly love? the ones that we believe no one else will replace?

stories from friends who r now happily attached...yet are never as happy as they once were with their past partners... n others whom like me can never seem to meet someone who can make us feel as happy as we once did...
everyone wonders if they will meet a better one.. wonders if they will end up alone @ 70... wonders if the 'one' has passed them by..

u know i always thought being attached was one of the best things... then i thought being single was the best..
then i realised being attached to the wrong one is one of the worst things.. until i finally know that being with someone i love is really the best thing..

i truly admire and envy my parents' relationship.. acceptance for each other.. efforts in making the marriage work ....even after all these years.... still going out for their '2ppl world' time..travelling.. sharing happy n unhappy moments together...n supporting each other tru all the good n bad times.. it's been 26 years and more... no wonder they say getting married is just the start of a whole different life...
to be the one you love is a blessing..

to all suffering frm a heartache.. u aint alone.. time will heal.. if it's meant to be..it will be..
to all in love.. treasure them..

with metta..

time to stop chasing

seriously...have you ever thought about what is happening to our dear Mother Earth..

I feel a pang of heartache whenever I think about the recent Cyclone Nargis that hit Myanmar..death tolls believed to hit 100,000.

I think about the victims..those who died..those who lost the entire family to the storm.. those who are left homeless n hungry.. children who have no idea where their family has gone to... left wandering around.. crying.. traumatized ..

then I think about how insignificant my worries are compared to theirs.. getting worried over finding a job.. concerned about how others judge me.. frustrated about the inconvenience during heavy rains.. totally crap.
I dun mean to say we have no right to be stressed etc. after all, the society really determines the type of stress n worries. but..i think sometimes we all get too caught up in our work, "dreams", goals n what we don't have... n forget to take a step back and just appreciate the moment we are living in. treasuring the moment we have with our family.. the simple meal.. the laps we swim.. n the miles we run...
to be honest, im totally guilty of always looking forward only to the "end' of a task.. the end of the run..the end of work.. i must make an effort to be more mindful and enjoy each moment..

i think about the children i spent a month with, in the Khao Lak orphanage in Thailand... these dearies lost their family to the tsunami.. n most of them have gone tru every kind of trauma u can think of.. n they turn out to be so strong...
i hope these survivors in Myanmar will be blessed with the strength n hopefully the good karma to make it through..

and guess what, i just found out that "A series of powerful tornadoes has swept across the central part of the United States, killing at least 11 people in Oklahoma and Missouri "..more disasters.

life is really unfair huh... how can we be so lucky to be in Spore, where we suffer from no natural disasters..n r too busy hoping the next MRT train will be "Reaching in 2 min".

if u wish to contribute to help the victims in Myanmar... here's 1 way..

Buddhist Fellowship (BF) has launched a fund collection to assist the cyclone victims in Burma. You can contribute by sending your donation to BUDDHIST FELLOWSHIP, 9 Chwee Chian Road, Singapore 117488. (tel: 6278 0900) Pls write "Aid for Burma" on the back of your cheques.
BF will work with Firefly Mission and Buddhist organisations in Yangon to deliver the needed items and to carry out reconstruction programs in Burma.

PS: BF gave me the opportunity to spent the meaningful 1 month to help out in the orphanage in Thailand, as a part of the post-tsunami re-construction project.

With metta..

thur my fav day!

fwah. starting to love thursdays..get to watch the Contender (Channel 5)..missed the episode last week cos went "clubbing" with my parents n grace... =P
finally.. after a week's wait..=)

hmm..for some reason..i always feel kinda high after watching the show lo...
tonight match was Yodsaenklai (Thai) vs Bruce (Aus), saw Yod. fight @ the indoor stadium live the last time, but seeing him fight tonight again on tv seemed so different. damn he's good.
really filial too.. he mentioned fighting for his family and saying how important his family is. during my 1 month in Thailand last year, i ve also known many young Thais who work really hard to support their family. alot of them have dreams to give their family a better life. i think that's really admirable..
honestly.. u dun see many of these peepz here huh. ... culture diff i guess.. quite sad. can u imagine spore 20years later? the number of old peepz having to fend for themselves.. i ll be one of them by then. sheesh.
anywayz.. the show was really cool lo. the winning team won a dine n chill time @ Rasa Sentosa.. it is actually quite funny seeing a Spore background on such a show..i dunno how to explain that feeling. quite proud of Spore actually! hee. i hope the guys like it here though..

it's fri tmr! omg. weekend's here again. xiong part again. ah. 2 more burnt weekends to go. hee.
take care peepz.

injured. heartache too.

foot still in pain.. was advised to postpone my AIC exam since I can't walk properly, let alone do any exercise movement properly.
sigh.. postponing means another 4,5 months.. n wat if i fail that exam?gotta wait another 4,5 months? sheesh.

week spent "tidying" up my life.. brushed up on insurance knowledge etc. feeling a little anxious again, not knowing what's gonna happen.. without a job at the moment means no income. almost a no-pay leave le. gotta jia you find smtg suitable soon.
oh man,why is money such an issue!

weekend was quite tiring, with the full day course etc. went for dinner with parents, bro n grace, jalan @ Carrefour .. then went to see the Flyer! first time there..din ride la.just check it out. it's 30 bucks for 20mins lo!

another week coming up.. omg.n i can't do much with my stupid injured foot. bleh.

injured.

injured..

feeling real frustrated.. having some foot injury..can't tiptoe or walk properly. been a week le.. can't go for runs.. nor walk long without feeling the pain.
i really dun like being injured.. feel so handicapped! dunno how long it will take to recover fully. sigh
anywayz.. just quit the door2door sales job.. been feeling unhappy n tired with the long hours, pay etc. really needed the break. n i guess it's not what i want as a career..
so now... juz gotta concentrate on my Income insurance advising.. n keep a lookout for a new opportunity! n gotta study for my upcoming AIC exam.. so I can get a job in the fitness industry! =)

till the next post.. so injured.