injured again...

yes I haven been very diligent in posting these days...sorrie bout it... actually I think it's a good thing..bcos most of them wouldn have been very spirit-uplifting kinda stuff... n it's probably juz the same old rambling ... =P

let's see... was told my blog seem to score me a reeeeallly low on positivity... and Im way excelling in the negativity end of the continuum... heh. tell me about it...
so I guess it kinda shows Im a half-empty cup person rather than a half-full person?
pretty much true..oh but not all the time... I think a half-empty cup's good...cos there's always room for improvement... =) (*eyes roll* right....as if..)

nah...think it's really mood-dependent.. when Im on a high... who cares if it's empty or full...it's just water for god's sake. if Im on a low..it's prob half-full of shit..and more to come... =) yea man.!

anyway..honestly been on a lousy-luck streak these days.. when I thought my back was getting beeet better after a month of "inactivity" n resting... I had to have a fall which left my knees totally disfigured n too much pain.. was this gravel path I fell onto ...n it was a really all-4s on the ground ..face-flat kind of fall...
no one was around n it was super dark lor. which is good in the sense...nobody saw me embarrass myself..nobody saw me teared...n nobody heared me curse...
thank gosh I din break anything .... if not I wd haf still be lying there till the next morning b4 a kind soul decide to help...

it was an interesting 10 mins I had after I fell.. I laid n remained flat for a few minutes...got up ..sat up slowly...saw my knees bleeding.. stared at it..realised it was painful n BLEEDING quite a lot... teared... ...felt my spine starting to hurt again... teared somemroe...
looked ard n realised I was alone... ...teared again... n allow myself to wallow in self-pity for a few good minutes.. haa. and then I curse ..
after tat...thank my lucky stars I din break my legs or knock my head out... slowly got up n limped my way back..

it was quite a "refreshing" moment to let go all the pent-up frustrations.. at a high price though..
so now..beside my poor spine...ive got disgusting knees.. how nice.. =) perfect for a brand new year!

ok..i promise myself I need to think about the good stuff tat happened.. u know..part of the "resolutions" tat never really got realised n so remains the same each year...

had a crush on someone... it was funny.. the kind of excited feeling...like hyper active butterflies dancing in ur stomach.. the kind of "teenage crush" moment.. oh it doesn't happen a lot in my life in case u were wondering.. never really went "crazy" for a guy.. not to the extent of buying flowers n waiting at his void deck daily...
but come to think of it.. I was driven crazy by someone before though. n it was a bad crazy way.
*shudder*

anyway..back to that guy... nice everthing...eyes..nose.. height.. shoulders..yes ears too... oh even the voice! *grin*
aiya..just a "nice to see...better dun touch* thing la. Im no way near the perfect girl for him..
n Im allergic to men for the moment I guess.. =P ops.

kk...lemme end here for now..so I can get a good night sleep..with sweeeeet dreams... =)
nitey peepz..

with metta..

HaPPie NeW YeaR SweEt HearTs!

quite a few things wanna blog about ...let's see...

firsT...HaAPPY NEeeew Year SweeTheaRTs! hope u guys hAf a reeeeallLy good 2007 huh... hope for me too man!! =)

okay..my back as in the spine, still hurts.. can't reach up high or far to even touch anything.. hurts like mad when I try to sleep too. certain movements trigger the pain so bad I wanna cry..
kinda hoping it will heal soon...if not..gotta get an xray done..hopefully I din break or crack any bone...*crossing fingers damn tightly*...

yea so cos of this stupid pain...haven had any good run since.. miss it.. gets jealous when I see ppl running happily ( do ppl do that actually?) celebrating the "sunshine after the rain"...
sheesh.

anyway...beside the frustrating pain... caught 2 movies over the last 3 days... 1st...Borat... manz...kinda pathetic movie I think..but godknowswhy it's been having so much "postive' reviews and praises lor. okay.. it's "humourous"..but in a demeaning and lame way...
and seriously..I think it's the kind of movie where 9/10 guys will find it funny and good..where 8/10 gals will find it lame and pathetic. I happen to be one of the 1st of the 8...

okay..it's not entirely not funny I admit. some jokes were quite funny in a pathetic way.. but seriously..paying close to 9 bucks to watch it? I wd rather watch it on u-tube..if I could sit tru it tat is... heh.
oh but the company for the movie was great la..finally got to catch up with some of my sweet "old" friends.. at least I wasn't watching it alone! =)


ahh...the 2nd movie I caught.... BloOd DiamOnd....U GOTTA GO WATCH IT!! it's totally worth the 9 bucks and much more! really one of the best movies Ive caught these few years... Im serious.. it's exciting (kinda impressed by my ability to sit tru the movie without getting restless or bored ..or even yawn!... for me, that is a darn achievement lor! )...it's educating..it's heartwarming..it's enlightening..... that show really touched my heart ..and opened my eyes!
I guess it's prob cos the show is so real..

honestly...Im not a fan of leornardo..and I usually won't watch his movies... precisely bcos of him... (Im sorry...if u are a fan...) but hey this movie was fantastic..and I really gotta say his acting was award-winning standard...no joke.. though I got a little irritated with his thing of sayig "huh" after almost every sentence.. u watch it..ull get wat I mean...

hmm.. guess I m kinda in a movie-deprived mood recently.. ended up watching 2 movies in 2 consecutive days.. would haf done more if Im not $$$$ -deprived too. heh.

yawns..it's 1plus already! darn..gota catch up with sleep soon.. work was almost hell yest.. ppl kept coming truout the night n earllly morining... which is really not-usual..... guess cos of the countdown-after-effects... alritey.. gonna go now. take care pEePz..

with metta..........